:: Something fishy ::

AaAAaaRrrrGGhhh!!! NAIINIS AKO! NAIINIS AKO! NAIINIS AKO!!!

bakit ba ang daming nagka-crush sa kaniya?!?

AaAaAarrgghh!!!

Nagtanong pa ko eh noh! I should know diba! Hay… ang okay niya kasi eh! Of course I couldn’t possibly expect to be the only one to notice, could I? hay…

dami mo talagang puwedeng madiscover by just surfing the internet. crush sha ni XXX! Feeling ko talaga sha yung sinasabi nun na crush niya! I’m almost as sure as if she had admitted it herself.

Hay… kahapon pa naman… AaaAArrggh!!! Sabi ko pa talaga while looking at them, "What if may something pala sa kanila noh?" sabay tawa!  tapos ngayon malalaman ko crush pala sha talaga nun! hmmnnpp!

anu ba to! para kong sira! para kong highschool!

hay hay hay… life!

I’m happy that I’m friends with that guy with the funny hairdo. After we met kasi parang ang awkward eh… tagal na kasi naming dapat magmeet tapos di matuloytuloy and then it finally pushed through nung May. Ok naman pero feeling ko it didn’t work out for him. Parang walang mashadong spark. But still I wanted to get to know him more. Kaso I just got this feeling that it wasn’t the case for him. Ang labo! Ahehe! Pero ganun. You know how a guy gets when he dates a girl and realizes “nah! I don’t really like her”. Of course he couldn’t say it like that outright so he will just sort of disappear. It was sort of like that. (Or maybe I’m just over analyzing things again. Ahehe! =P) Anyway, I’m happy because we talked again after sometime of not talking. I asked his opinion about this guy that I’ve been crushing on and he shared some very informative tips. Like how to know if the guy’s gay or if he’s too full of himself. I’m taking his words with considerable confidence since he himself is a guy. I just hope he’s right. =P Ang cool lang kasi now it’s established that we’re really friends. Maybe we can even watch a movie one of these days. And now, I no longer have to fret about asking him. I really have to get over my thing with guys and movies anyway. =)

I just woke up. I slept almost 12 hours! Nagbawi talaga ko. Sa party pa lang ni Thea kagabi nakakatulog na ko sa table eh! And I was sleeping in the car during the entire trip home. When I got to the house, I washed up, brushed my teeth, change clothes and went straight to bed. I was out as soon as my head hit the pillows! Sarap matulog! Tapos napanaginipan ko pa sha ulit! =)

Anyway, I realized I should stop analyzing everything too much. Binibigyan ko lang ng sakit ng ulo sarili ko eh! Pnproblema ko mga bagay na hindi pa naman dapat problemahin. Like what I said to Carla, the problem with me is that I’m always in fast forward mode. When something is just starting, I always can’t wait for what will happen next. I should stop being like that. I should just go with the flow. Enjoy every moment. I know it will be difficult for me because thinking and analyzing too much is just the way I am. I’m sort of built that way. I always have to make sense of things. I find it hard to just accept things as they come. I always have to know what’s behind everything. I’m always asking why. I always have way too many questions. I have to quit all that and just relax. I have to. I will. Or at least, I’ll try. =)

It’s Edward’s birthday today. Too bad for him it coincides with his first econ exam. Kumusta kaya exam nila… Nagtext sha kanina para mang-inggit and then when I asked about the exam and something else, di naman nagreply! Howel, sana ok naman! Saka yun pa! I bet aral na aral yun!

i don’t know whether to be happy or sad… whether to be thankful or disappointed… hay… ewan!

i have a paper due tomorrow at 8:30 am and i haven’t even started writing it. Actually, since it’s almost 3am already, the paper is technically due today. The deadline is in 5 hours and 38 minutes to be exact. Good luck to me! I guess I’ll have to forego sleep for tonight. I mean, for this morning. ah ewan!

Hay…

Jong! Thanks! basta alam mo na yun! shempre tulog ka na nung nagtext ako… hay hay hay… i really have to talk to you… usap tayo asap…

Emmans! (shempre jong kasama sha diba? hehe..) thanks sa message… and sa prayers… (anu ba yun para akong may sakit or patay na ganyan! ahehe!) saka the best talaga yung hirit mo na yun! sana may magsabi din nun sakin… ahehe! =P

O eto na ju! nagupdate na ko! di ka na madidisappoint pag inopen mo page ko! yung reaction mo kanina parang it’s a duty for me to regularly submit entries para pag nagcheck ka siguradong may mababasa ka eh! parang requirement ganyan! may grade ba to? =P

AaAaAaHHhhhHH!!!! i have 5 hours more to write that stupid critique for 199! bibilisan ko na lang para makatulog pa ko kahit konti! gawa na nga ko! hay… life!

I’m so happy! Ecstatic, even! I’m so hyper and high! Haaay… I love this feeling! The feeling that makes you involuntarily smile regardless of being in a public place and being all by yourself with strangers curiously looking at you and thinking that you must be crazy. The feeling that makes you struggle to keep from smiling and fail hopelessly at it so you simply smile all you want not caring about the weird looks being thrown at you. This is what exactly happened to me a while ago as I was in line for a Philcoah jeepney. I was all by myself and I had this big smile on my face looking like I’m about to burst into giggles (which I actually did once in a while) as I excitedly texted Ju about what was making me feel all hyper and giddy. =P The other day, I had so many reasons to be sad and I wished for the following days to be better! Well, I guess God is quick to answer my prayers. Ahehe! Ang galing Niya talagang bumawi! He simply gave me one reason, just a single reason, to be happy. That one reason sufficed to beat all the other reasons that made me sad. Ang galing! Ang babaw lang pero ang saya-saya! Haaay…Loooorrdd!!! More! More! More!!! Ahehe! =P

I’m sad because:

1. I don’t have time to update my blog! (I have to make do with entries such as this.)

2. I’m overwhelmed by school work! (I have no idea how I can possibly do everything I have to do on time and without doing a haphazard job of it!)

3. I failed my supposed "this-is-it-diet". (Haaayy… Michico,what’s new? stop dreaming that you’ll ever fit in your "payat clothes" again which, by the way, occupy half of your closet! what a waste of your father’s money!)

4. Crush ko na naman sha!!! Hay naku! That’s not really saddening as it is! The sad part is that a tarot card reading yielded a negative answer when I asked if there’s any hope for anything, and i mean ANYTHING even remotely romantic to develop between us. Wala daw talaga!!! Huhuhu… =,( (Howel! I don’t exactly take it as the absolute reality of my future but… I don’t know… I just can’t help feeling sad about it.)

5. The other night, I dreamt that i was kissing someone who I shouldn’t even think about much more dream of in that context. (That is if I want to save my self from senseless misery that seems to never want to end.)

6. I’m in a predicament involving something that is very crucial to my academic future. (Looorrdd… Help!!! Pauline… Ju… what do i do???)

7. Somebody is ignoring me right at this very moment.

8. I missed our MTV Get Spotted episode. (I wonder if i looked fatter on TV? Hmmm… I don’t want to think about it anymore!)

9. My computer’s low batt signal is flashing already and i have to finish this up.

haaay… I hope the next few days will be better!

The semester has just started and I’m already buried in school work! UuGghh… Today, I  was in the library from 10am to 5pm! Talk about the surest way to subject yourself to wooden chair induced cramps! My thesis proposal professor seems to think we only have his class to attend to this semester! He assigned us to read an entire book and 20 theses and he wants all of it accomplished this week! To top it off, I have to read a set of lengthy, confusing, highfaluting words laden lectures for my sociology class and write a paper about it. hay hay hay… I have so much to do and what am i doing now??? i’m here writing in this damn blog! hay naku! o sha! i better start doing more productive things! i’ve barely made progress and it’s already the middle of the week! good luck to me!

WAAAAAAHHHHH!!! ANG SAYA SAYA KO!!!! Diyos ko, Loooorddd!!! Thank you! I just had one of my best days ever! May pagka dream come true ito ganyan! The assers were in MTV Hanging Out with Parokya ni Edgar! Wooohhooo!!! Ang saya kasi literal itong “hanging out”! I was not disappointed! It was really worth missing my Jose Lacaba class! I got to sit beside and actually talk and laugh with Chito Miranda! THE Chito! MY Chito! Haay… parang ayoko nang matapos ang shoot kanina! Ahehe! Plus I get to be on MTV pa! How cool is that?! hay… Life is good! =)  I love Skeeter more for this! Ang saya talaga! The band is so cool! Chito and Gab were hilarious! I couldn’t stop laughing! Sobrang benta sila sakin! And i realized cute din pala si Gab in person! =) ang weird nga kasi i’ve seen them a couple of times already around UP and in concerts but i’ve never really noticed him until now. chitocentric kasi ang pagiging parokya fan ko before eh! i only mind him and their songs! all the rest just fades in the background! ahehe! =P Saka ang babait nila! Sobrang approachable. Especially Chito! ahehe! (saka si Gab na din! nag-offer pa shang magtake ng picture namin ni Chito!) I’m obviously biased! =P but it’s true! he was so patient with the endless requests for pictures! (He was selling like hotcakes! Everyone wants a picture with him alone!) But then again, malamang lamang lang sanay na kasi sha diba! Ah ewan! Basta I love Chito! Ahehe! Ang saya talaga! I had a blast! High pa din ako til now! Hahahaha! Wooohooo!!! =D

I watched ‘Mr. and Mrs. Smith’ with my batchmates last night. As expected I was blown away by the actors! Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt ba naman in one movie! Aysus! I couldn’t think of any other man and woman pair that deserved to be described as the epitome of sexiness. They look so good together! Angelina Jolie is as seductive and beautiful as ever! And Brad Pitt is just… well, he’s Brad Pitt! Need I say anything?!?

The movie per se was not really as great as I expected it to be but the presence of the actors well compensated for it. We were so noisy inside the cinema! Carla and Kriz kept whispering side comments about how perfectly good-looking, gorgeously sexy and just undoubtedly hot the actors were. Ibang level talaga si Angelina Jolie! Diyos ko Looord! Ang t-hormones ko! Haha! =p

I was supposed to ask somebody else to watch this movie but I had a last minute change of mind. Just as I was about to ask him, I had second thoughts and then I just decided to scrap the plan altogether. Yan tuloy! Now, I’m wondering what if I just went ahead and asked him. Hay hay hay… kasi Michico eh! tsk tsk..

bday celebration ni carla kanina! ang saya ng mga assers! ang babaliw talaga! videoke the whole night. all-out singing and dancing pa talaga. it was so timely because there were some moments today that i felt sad. i felt that heavy feeling in my chest that i felt when i got depressed for sometime during first year college. i can’t explain or pin-point exactly why i felt it. i just felt sad and alone. you know that feeling of being miserably alone even though you are in a room full of people… it was like that. hay… but i felt better after sometime. simula nung nakashoot ako sa basketball after sabihin ni thea na pagpumasok, may sobra akong gustong mangyari na magkakatotoo na! woohoo! hahaha! yun na! saka nung nakisali na ko sa kantahan or shall i say pagwawala ng mga assers! saka nag-usap din kami ni ju! SGng usap ganyan! it really made me feel better. hay… sana matapos na tong stage na to ng sadness bouts ko! i think this is just an episode. it’ll pass.. i just hope it passes soon.