:: Something fishy ::

I got an unexpected call from Johann again. I was in the middle of texting a friend when this itsy bitsy picture of him suddenly flashed on the screen. I had to look at my cell phone for a few seconds more before I was convinced that it was really him calling. We talked about what’s keeping each other busy… school…(flat 1 lang naman sha sa isang pamatay na accounting class) JPIA… broadass… DK… this blog… (binasa ba naman niya lahat ng entries ko simula pa nung April.) It was really nice talking to him again. And I’m glad that we still get to talk once in a while even if it happens so rarely. Nakakatuwa lang na kahit sobrang matagal kaming di mag-uusap, as in months ganyan, never pa rin nawawala yung communication totally. Meron at meron pa rin. He even watched last year’s DK. Eh di naman kami nag-uusap nung time na yun. Hindi nga lang nagpakita sakin! Parang ewan! Tatawag para sabihing nanood sha kung kelan nakauwi na sha. Kung di niya lang alam yung lines nung character ko di talaga ko maniniwalang nagpunta sha dun eh. I really appreciated his effort though, he even went out of his way to go to UP get his ticket early when he could have just gotten it on the night of the play itself. Howel, I hope he can watch this year’s DK again. At sana next time magpakita naman sha sakin diba!

I just scanned my archive and read some of my old entries… may mga mali-maling spelling and grammar pala ko na di ko napansin. May isang entry ako na instead of “through”, “true” yung natype ko. “and going true a grueling exam” ganyan! Di ko kinaya, ate mae! Ahehe! And I have many run-on sentences! Sometimes I write my thoughts exactly as I think them or as I would say it in person. I thought of editing my mistakes but I was too lazy to actually do it. Besides, wala naming grade to. Saka blog ko naman to. I can write whatever I want. Hahaha! I sound so defensive! =P

Naiinis ako sa friendster alerts. Sana puwedeng choice mo na lang kung makakareceive ng alerts yung friends mo pag nag-update ka ng blog. I don’t want to clutter the inboxes of people whenever I update my blog. Especially since when I’m in the mood and I have the time, in a day, I sometimes update my blog twice or thrice. Edi tatlong beses sila makakatanggap ng email na nagupdate ako. It gets irritating eh.

I went malling with my batchmates today. We ate, laughed, bought some stuff, laughed, looked for krizzie’s eyeglasses, laughed, launched our singing careers by recording our very first set of songs in a karaoke booth, laughed, looked for a missing map, laughed and laughed some more! We had such a blast! =D

I was supposed to just buy a pair of earrings for Issy but, the impulsive buyer that I am, I just had to also buy a pair for myself and an over-priced hair accessory as well! Ahehe! =P But I was no match for ju. He made a spur of the moment decision to buy a new cell phone! Grabe na! I just left them for a few minutes to check out the mall’s tiangge stalls and when I went back he was already inside Globe buying a Sony-Erricson model! How many people do you know go to malls to simply hang out with friends and when they suddenly get the urge to buy a new cell phone, they actually do buy one?!

We went to Frio Mixx because the place has nice tables and seats thinking one or two of us could order there and the rest could just buy the food they really wanted outside. I bought a blueberry cheesecake from Mocha Blends and got some cheesedog waffles with Edward. As we were making ourselves comfortable eating the stuff we bought, the waitress approached us and said,

"Excuse me, po. Sorry po pero strictly no outside food po kasi kami dito…"

Aysus! Our plan was ruined. We just said sorry and promised to eat our waffles fast, we were halfway through eating it already anyway. She was nice and was actually very apologetic. We were able to eat the waffles and cake in peace. The others had no choice but to order inside.

Ang saya ng kuwentuhan sa frio mixx! The best yung paalis na kami. We were laughing so hard! They were all ganging up on me because of some secret they thought I was hiding about one of our orgmates. There’s really no secret, I swear! It was not that I didn’t want to share it. It was just that I honestly had nothing to share! (ju alam ko binabasa mo to! Promise! Wala talaga ko alam! Hmnnp! Ayaw kasi maniwala!) basta! Ang saya! Nakakamiss tuloy mga absentee batchmates! =( 

While writing this, I’m listening to our very own karaoke version of our batch song. I’m playing it in loop mode and it is in its 6^th run already! When I first heard it I couldn’t stop laughing! We sound so happy! We were all singing at the top of our lungs. Off-key and with terrible timing and all. And you can hear our laughters and side comments. (Tama ka ju! "RIOT" talaga!) I love it! =) I really felt the 03 spirit… Ang saya! =) We have to do this again, and next time we have to make sure we’re complete! Although there’s a problem… We we’re only five today and yet we could barely move inside the booth! What more if we’re complete?! It is impossible to fit all ten of us inside! Good luck diba! Pero basta! We have to record our batch song again with all ten of us!

Hay… I love my batchmates! Soobbrraa!!! These are the people who made (and continue to make) my college life wonderful. =)

Shucks! Here I go again, becoming all sentimental!

I better stop to this before I get too carried away! =P

When we were on our way home, Ju and I talked about that guy I went crazy about almost two years ago. I mentioned something I didn’t know I wasn’t able to share with him. I really thought I’ve already told him everything that happened with that guy since he was one of the people I constantly whine and rave about when it comes to my lovelife (and well, actually, everything else for that matter). The things he didn’t know were actually some of the juicy parts! I can’t believe I never got to tell him about those things… And besides, after all this time, we still talk about him once in a while. That guy was like a never ending topic for us. How can I not have told him those stuff all this time??? hmmm… weird.

Anyway, it made me think about that guy again. It made me wonder if, now that I seem to be infatuated again, I can really say that I am over him. Is this the “time” I’ve been waiting for? The time that I will no longer be haunted by my what ifs about us. The time that I can finally stop, as I’ve said in a previous entry, “incessantly wasting energy and brain cells wondering about what could have been even though I know no possible good can come out of it”. Am I “really, totally, absolutely, completely” over him?

Hmm… I honestly still can’t say.

AaAAaaRrrrGGhhh!!! NAIINIS AKO! NAIINIS AKO! NAIINIS AKO!!!

bakit ba ang daming nagka-crush sa kaniya?!?

AaAaAarrgghh!!!

Nagtanong pa ko eh noh! I should know diba! Hay… ang okay niya kasi eh! Of course I couldn’t possibly expect to be the only one to notice, could I? hay…

dami mo talagang puwedeng madiscover by just surfing the internet. crush sha ni XXX! Feeling ko talaga sha yung sinasabi nun na crush niya! I’m almost as sure as if she had admitted it herself.

Hay… kahapon pa naman… AaaAArrggh!!! Sabi ko pa talaga while looking at them, "What if may something pala sa kanila noh?" sabay tawa!  tapos ngayon malalaman ko crush pala sha talaga nun! hmmnnpp!

anu ba to! para kong sira! para kong highschool!

hay hay hay… life!

I’m happy that I’m friends with that guy with the funny hairdo. After we met kasi parang ang awkward eh… tagal na kasi naming dapat magmeet tapos di matuloytuloy and then it finally pushed through nung May. Ok naman pero feeling ko it didn’t work out for him. Parang walang mashadong spark. But still I wanted to get to know him more. Kaso I just got this feeling that it wasn’t the case for him. Ang labo! Ahehe! Pero ganun. You know how a guy gets when he dates a girl and realizes “nah! I don’t really like her”. Of course he couldn’t say it like that outright so he will just sort of disappear. It was sort of like that. (Or maybe I’m just over analyzing things again. Ahehe! =P) Anyway, I’m happy because we talked again after sometime of not talking. I asked his opinion about this guy that I’ve been crushing on and he shared some very informative tips. Like how to know if the guy’s gay or if he’s too full of himself. I’m taking his words with considerable confidence since he himself is a guy. I just hope he’s right. =P Ang cool lang kasi now it’s established that we’re really friends. Maybe we can even watch a movie one of these days. And now, I no longer have to fret about asking him. I really have to get over my thing with guys and movies anyway. =)

I just woke up. I slept almost 12 hours! Nagbawi talaga ko. Sa party pa lang ni Thea kagabi nakakatulog na ko sa table eh! And I was sleeping in the car during the entire trip home. When I got to the house, I washed up, brushed my teeth, change clothes and went straight to bed. I was out as soon as my head hit the pillows! Sarap matulog! Tapos napanaginipan ko pa sha ulit! =)

Anyway, I realized I should stop analyzing everything too much. Binibigyan ko lang ng sakit ng ulo sarili ko eh! Pnproblema ko mga bagay na hindi pa naman dapat problemahin. Like what I said to Carla, the problem with me is that I’m always in fast forward mode. When something is just starting, I always can’t wait for what will happen next. I should stop being like that. I should just go with the flow. Enjoy every moment. I know it will be difficult for me because thinking and analyzing too much is just the way I am. I’m sort of built that way. I always have to make sense of things. I find it hard to just accept things as they come. I always have to know what’s behind everything. I’m always asking why. I always have way too many questions. I have to quit all that and just relax. I have to. I will. Or at least, I’ll try. =)

It’s Edward’s birthday today. Too bad for him it coincides with his first econ exam. Kumusta kaya exam nila… Nagtext sha kanina para mang-inggit and then when I asked about the exam and something else, di naman nagreply! Howel, sana ok naman! Saka yun pa! I bet aral na aral yun!

i don’t know whether to be happy or sad… whether to be thankful or disappointed… hay… ewan!

i have a paper due tomorrow at 8:30 am and i haven’t even started writing it. Actually, since it’s almost 3am already, the paper is technically due today. The deadline is in 5 hours and 38 minutes to be exact. Good luck to me! I guess I’ll have to forego sleep for tonight. I mean, for this morning. ah ewan!

Hay…

Jong! Thanks! basta alam mo na yun! shempre tulog ka na nung nagtext ako… hay hay hay… i really have to talk to you… usap tayo asap…

Emmans! (shempre jong kasama sha diba? hehe..) thanks sa message… and sa prayers… (anu ba yun para akong may sakit or patay na ganyan! ahehe!) saka the best talaga yung hirit mo na yun! sana may magsabi din nun sakin… ahehe! =P

O eto na ju! nagupdate na ko! di ka na madidisappoint pag inopen mo page ko! yung reaction mo kanina parang it’s a duty for me to regularly submit entries para pag nagcheck ka siguradong may mababasa ka eh! parang requirement ganyan! may grade ba to? =P

AaAaAaHHhhhHH!!!! i have 5 hours more to write that stupid critique for 199! bibilisan ko na lang para makatulog pa ko kahit konti! gawa na nga ko! hay… life!